Monday, February 02, 2009
First up, a Happy Lunar New Year to all! I've been missing from here again I know. Not using it as an excuse, but I have been freaking busy. Ever since I came back from Malacca, ever since change took place at work, I haven't been feeling too good, and I mean emotionally.
I'm feeling the drain everyday as I go to work and it is a sign I know. A sign that I can do nothing about at this point in time. Yes, I've been contemplating about throwing in the towel, about changing my life completely, about leaving the country. The thought has been running through my head gazillion times, but forced to shut away given the current situation. I want the change, but I fear the change too. When will I ever free myself from the daily grind I see no meaning in? When will I ever be not bogged down by the struggles in life? When will I find joy in work again? When will I be happy again?
On another note, I'm finally in the Advance class of my Japanese. They finally have a seat for me! I waited for almost 4 months already can? That's it, I'm gonna hog my place in the class forever and ever from now on. I've got no more higher levels to advance to already anyway. Haha! After such a long break, yesterday's class was really a good one. This'll keep me going for awhile more I guess.
Starting my lectures again next week. It's a long tedious module with an exam paper to sit for this time round. The good news is, I'm half-way there! =D
// she's beautifully chaotic at 1:02 AM >> 