Saturday, March 31, 2007
Irony as how life has always been, yesterday was the worst & the best day I ever had in 20+ years of life on earth. Worst being screwing up at work big time. And I really mean BIG time. My day didn't started well in the first place. Rather, I haven't been feeling too positive lately. Just when I thought my day at work was about end, bad news came. Never mind what, but it was truly entirely my own fault. No one to blame, but my poor memory. Big bad oversight. That last 1 hour at work was horrible! I just felt like dumping everything & just pack my bag & leave the place forever for good. I didn't of course. Can't let go of certain things still. Anyhow, I still went ahead for my Japanese class despite having such a terrible day at work. Coz I know it is the only thing that can cheer me up now.
Negative thoughts were thrown out the minute my lesson commenced. Starting crapping around with my classmates & sensei altogether again. Shortly after our break, the class continued & suddenly, my sensei told the whole class to say a few encouraging words to me coz I haven't been feeling too good lately. I thought she was just using me as an example at first, but then realised why she did so. She prolly read the essay entry I wrote for homework during break time. I was on the verge of crying then, but swallowed my tears back. I hope no one spotted me with my rimming red eyes.
I complained about how miserable humans are because all we think about in life is work & money. I dread going to work everyday & I simply detest my boss. You get the idea. So I guess my sensei got pretty worried about me. She did psychology back then in Japan you see.
After class, I headed out for dinner with my classmates as usual & had a helluva great time. I'm utterly thankful for them sometimes. Got home slightly before midnight & just before I took my bath, I received an email from my sensei. An encouragement email. And it made me cry, again.
Just a gist of what the email is about, she's worried about me after seeing how gloomy I was & asked if my work has been really bad lately. Here's one sentence she said, that I liked particularly: (translated) "Everyone has opportunity, but the point is how we can get it."
I was crying like a tap after reading her email. I was extremely touched. For someone who has known me for less than 6 months & whom I only see once a week, to be so concerned about me was just too much for me to take.
とてもとても感動しました。私は今もう大丈夫です。心配しないでください。今から、元気で活きています。先生、ありがとう！先生が大好きです！ <3
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