Tuesday, October 24, 2006
I haven't been quite myself ever since I came back from Beijing. I feel like an empty shell moving on with life for the sake of it.
I dread work every fucking day. While I'm at it, I tend to just bury myself in work, work, work & more work. Things & people that used to piss me off are mere micro organisms to me now. I've lost the energy to even feel angry.
Nothing seems to interest me anymore. I stopped surfing online shopping sites, or rather, I stopped shopping altogether, when it's something I used to enjoy so much. I don't even look forward to my first intermediate Japanese lesson starting this Friday. I'm even thinking of stopping this particular pursue.
Did I also mention that my crying spells are back? For 2 nights in a row, I almost flooded the cab I was in.
Has anyone seen me? Please let me know if you have. I don't know who am I now.
// she's beautifully chaotic at 10:08 PM >> 