Thursday, September 08, 2005
I bet I scared a whole lot of people in the office this afternoon. Or rather, left them worried. I hereby apologise for my actions, which up till now, leaves me wondering why I behaved that way.
I stepped into the office, greeted everyone good day & settled down. 5 minutes later, I started sobbing uncontrollably. I tried to stop, but my tears just forced its way through my tear glands, out of my eyes & down my cheeks.
(I was glad) No one noticed. Until 2 minutes later, a colleague stepped into the office greeted me, but saw that I didn't respond, realised what happened to me & walked away quietly. Then another came by & said, "Hi!" & again, I didn't respond. The later said nothing & gave me a pat & brought a cup of warm water & left. The first colleague who greeted me, came by again & gave me a nice little hug. "mei, come talk to me if you want k?" (I'm affectionately known as xiao mei by that particular colleague.) My cubicle neighbour watched me quietly as I sobbed. He later msn-ed me: "I'm here if you wanna talk."
I started crying even more miserably after what my 3 lovely colleagues did to me. They didn't ask why, didn't wanna know why. All they did was to offer a listening ear, warm shoulder rubs & hugs.
I regained my composure 1 hour later & I was back to my bubbly self again. No one else noticed any change in me except for the handful that actually saw me crying. (Thank god!)
I now credit the above-mentioned actions to a new found disease, The SMEITNNT (Sudden Moments of Emotions Instability That Needs No Trigger) Syndrome.
// she's beautifully chaotic at 11:50 PM >> 