Friday, May 07, 2004
I'm so fucking paranoid. I doubt I can sleep well tonight. *sigh* My tummy's aching & churning. Could be me being to stressed out? Or I ate the wrong thing? *sigh* Whatever...that's not important now.
I left my work undone today. Madam handed me some work earlier this evening around 7pm. "Tonight ah, you do this this this..." Thinking I can finish the given work before I knock-off, I didn't asked if it's urgent or if it must be done by tonight. So, I proceeded to clear de press releases & also the assignment inbox stuffs that the editors assigned out. (Of course I did Unit Trusts as well...THE KILLER! I started it at 5.45pm & only finished it at around 7pm. Horrible right? It's so tedious & scary that I had to take extra care when doing it) Then, I started to to the assignment checklist. We have to do 3 checklists instead of the usual 1 on Thursdays. (Long story & lotsa newsroom jargon. I shall spare you from it) By the time that was done, it's almost 11.30pm. Usually I leave the office at around 11.15pm++ (Coz Anwar chased me home...LOL! They don't want me to get home too late. Sweet huh?) I know I hafta finish what Madam gave me & so I stayed to finish up the stuffs. BUT, as I was going through it, I became unsure of what is really expected. Am I suppose to do it this way? It's too late to ring up Madam & ask & so I finished all the other "za pa lang" duties & left office at around 12.20am leaving the work incompleted. I intend to go in office early tommorrow to ask Madam & clear my doubts & then finish it up ASAP.
Now, the point is, I'm so scared that I'll get a scolding for not finishing the work. How? How? How? =( I'm so gonna be DEAD! Please tell me it's alright to leave work undone till the next day. Please give me some assurance. Please pray for me.
The next BAD thing. Anwar was on MC yesterday (he had gastric problems) & he's on MC again today. So I was all alone on night shift tonight. Hope he gets well soon & be fit enough to work on Sunday. COZ IT'S MY FIRST SUNDAY SHIFT & there tons of things for me to learn. If he's not gonna be around, I'm so gonna be DEAD! (again). Sighhhhhh..... 
I don't usually use smilies but this is exactly how I look like now!
*Note: All tonights & todays refer to 6th May 2004.
// she's beautifully chaotic at 2:12 AM >> 