Wednesday, November 26, 2003
Suddenly. I miss them. The 2 of them. I wanted very much to SMS them all of a sudden this evening. But I didn't. I wish time can turn back. Turn back to where it was 2 years ago. The best time of my life. If that fateful event didn't happen, what will things be like now? We're still the same. But, we're not the same anymore. I tried to make them seem small, having no impact on my life. But, I was wrong. They changed my life. What am I in your eyes? Friend? Pal? Sister? Or just an aquaintance? Sometimes, I think my high pride brought me to where I am now. We all took it for granted and let nature take it's course. And then, it flowed away. Slowly, silently, steadily, without us knowing it. Maybe I'm taking too much out of this relationship. Maybe you meant it this way. Maybe...maybe...maybe...it's fate? I have no courage to twist the fate. This time round, time will not heal. It'll just erode us apart. Every single day, I'm reminded of you by every single thing. Weird it may seem. Funny how I think this way, you may think. But I didn't did it because of what others will do. Do you see my sincerity? Do you see my truth? Do you feel my trust? It takes 2 hands to clap. Yours is just simply out of reach sometimes. Soon, I maybe forgotten. But, you 2 will never be forgotten. Take my words for that. Jie & K, i miss the 2 of you. LOADS. Do you feel the same? 
// she's beautifully chaotic at 2:48 AM >> 