Tuesday, September 01, 2009
I think I am showing signs of PMS again. Buddy told me (more than once) that my PMS are very obvious and serious. She is so right about me. I know I am throwing tantrums due to PMS, yet I can't helm or do anything to it. That's why it's called PMS I guess. Sorry buddy and thanks for loving me. You know I love you too! <3
And thanks to my PMS, I've been saying wrong things for the past few days. Mostly to buddy or in relation to her. I feel like slapping myself now for blurting things that should have been kept hush. Like today, I shouldn't have said something to her but I did. It was nothing hurtful, but just that it would have been better for us if I didn't say it. Or maybe better for me? All in all, I'm feeling damn insecure again. I just wish things wouldn't change for us and just remain status quo. But something is telling me the wind is changing its direction soon and I'm not sure if I'm ready for it. Gawd! I so need to snap out of this!!!
On a happy note, buddy and I are planning for a holiday. The dates keep changing (From Oct to Nov, and now to Sep) but yes, we are planning for a (or maybe two?) holiday(s) this year-end. We deserve a break.
// she's beautifully chaotic at 11:39 PM >> 