Wednesday, March 02, 2005
Went into a hiatus without realising it. So yeah, apologies first if you've been popping by now & then & then having to navigate away coz there's nothing new to read about.
It's a wonder how one's mood can switch so quickly within minutes. My mood swings are worsening each day I tell you - faster than switching the channels on the remote. My emotions are getting out of hand & I obsolutely have no fuggin' idea what the hell is going on with me & my moods.
I stepped into my office feeling rather ok in my usual stone self. Got down to work & chatted alittle (about wisdom tooth & all) with my mates at the local desk. Apparently the whole newsroom knows about me & my FWT. Never mind how. Things went on as they should & I was crapping all day long with my mates on MSN. Naturally, crap chat = a giggly me = a happy me. I was still fooling around with my mates at the projects desk just before dinner & I laughed so loud that the security guard at the reception on the ground floor can prolly hear me. It seems like a good day...
But right now, I feel as though my dog has died. Not that I have one...& it's a bad hypothesis used I know, but you get the idea. Dragged myself to some lonesome dinner coz I rejected an invite from an colleague. (See! I dunno what's wrong with me again!) And the usually lovely milk-tea I had tastes like drain-water all of a sudden. The romantic night scene at Singapore River turned melancholy tonight, even though zillions of couples were getting all lovey dovey. Play any soapy love songs now & I'll probably just cry my heart out. Did I also mention that I've lost my appetite lately?
Don't ask me to cheer up or take care. (Thanks if you intend to.) I don't know how to go about doing it. I don't even know the root of my accidental sorrow, let alone cure it. I might just snap out of this wistfulness tomorrow morning. At least I hope to. Right now, I'm just looking forward to the party at my colleague's condo this weekend & another's wedding dinner the next...
P/S: Since neytOn suggested a cause for my mood swings - i.e. the monthy girl matter, I'm making this official. This time round, my mood swings are NOT due to PMS. And I don't behave like this during my PMS period. I get cranky & extremely foul, not jaded like how I feel now. Since we are at it, let me just provide some info abt PMS. Premenstrual syndrome (PMS) is a group of symptoms related to the menstrual cycle. PMS symptoms occur in the week or two weeks before your period (menstruation or monthly bleeding). The symptoms usually go away after your period starts. (Ref: link) FYI, mine ended 2 weeks ago, so, I'm not in one of mine PMS blues right now. One last note. I hate it when people link bad mood swings to PMS. Don't get me started.
// she's beautifully chaotic at 11:29 PM >> 