Sunday, January 02, 2005
The fact that it's year 2005 now still hasn't quite settled in me yet. I'm so not used to saying last year when I'm actually only referring to last week. Like alot of blogs & sites you've seen, I'm gonna do something cliche as well. A look back at year 2004.
It was a year of many firsts for me. The first time I didn't have to worry about waking up early for school on 1 January 2004. I actually stop schooling officially, after 15 years of education. Fifteen freaking years! But no, I'm not gonna put my education path to a hiatus. It's just not the correct time now. I need to get myself monetarily-abled.
My first experience with depression. The first close brush with suicidal thought. The first time I discovered the hermit-ism potential in me. But strictly speaking, I was already picking up my pieces in year 2004. Anyhow, the shattered me is restored. I've learnt to channel my mind to somewhere safer. =]
The first job interview I had. The first time I cried over an failed interview. (It was a job I wanted badly & I thought I had a good chance of getting it, but no.) My first permanent full-time job. My first boss. (As in real bossy boss. No more "it's just a temp job" attitude & mindset.) My first appraisal. My first taste of adrenaline rush in the newsroom with the Nicoll Highway disaster. My first time seeing fixed amount of salary go into my bank account month after month. The first time giving my Mum the household allowance. The first time seeing my work run on print on the paper.
Thanks to all the "inaugurations" I had, I've somehow made a great leap in my life. From that know-nothing lass who has been staying in her own comfort zone for too long, to someone who's still growing & learning every second.
For the next 363 days, I pledge to the following:
1.) Tame that horrible volcanic temper
2.) Cleanse self of all excessive monetary sins
3.) Shed some content from self
4.) Equip self with more useful info other than that of gossips
5.) Master the art of satisfaction
6.) Fill self with more ignorance that'll create bliss
7.) Close self's mouth - be it input or output & open self's heart
8.) Develop higher AQ (Adversity Quotient)
9.) Be more receptive to positive changes
10.) Recover self's audaciousness
Realising 10% of that would be good enough. See! I've already done no. 5
// she's beautifully chaotic at 3:38 AM >> 