Sunday, April 04, 2004
Went groceries shopping with Mum earlier this evening. Mum said it's a major groceries shopping & so she needed help & so being de filial daughter, I had no reason to reject =P Since it's a BIG one, I suggested we use a trolley instead of the usual green baskets (The kind you see in NTUC) & so the both of us started digging for the golden coin to get the trolley out of their "parking lot". But, we don't have any & Mum suggested exchanging coins. This stupid fucking chao kandang (ardent readers will know how I hate kandangs & banana kias. Grrrr!) auntie came by with her daughter to return their trolleys back to the lot. Mum then asked (in mandarin)
Mum: "Can I change coins with you please?"
SFCKA: *stares at Mum from top to toe*
At this very minute, I wanted very much to hammer her with the wet umbrella in my hand & smash the green plastic basket over her head. Fucking woman....stare at my mum with those condescending pair of eyes. Who the fuck do you think you are bitch? Just another pathetic auntie on groceries shopping. UGLY auntie!
SFCKA: "Nonononono! I don't want coins. So heavy!"
And she grabbed her daughter's hand & walked away. Then, I shouted: "SO SELFISH!" I'm not sure if she heard it but I certainly hope she did. C'mon man! How heavy will 1 coin be? Are you so frail & weak that you can't even carry an extra 50cents coin around? ASSHOLE BITCH! It's fine if you don't wanna exchange coins with me you know, I can jolly well ask the nice & friendly ladies at the cashier counter. And I did.
Sometimes, I try not to be bias on english speaking people. But time after time, their fucked up attitude & their "Oh-I-speak-English-and-I-am-so-GREAT-and-high-class" behaviour pisses me off like hell & I can't help but hate them. Don't you find it shameful when you can't even speak a single sentence of mandarin when you're a freaking Chinese? Don't you find it disgraceful when a caucasian can speak mandarin better than you do? Don't you feel guilty when a caucasian thinks Chinese culture & mandarin is beautiful & you on the other hand thinks mandarin is low-class & rowdy & you have the cheek to call people cheena? This brings me to another point. Cheena is yet another term I hate. CHEENA CHEENA CHEENA! WTF! You not Chinese huh? When I first got into mass comm, & when people realised I speak mandarin most of the time, they label me as a cheena freak. The best part is, the people who once labelled me as cheena started to join me in speaking mandarin at the end of my 1st yr in MCM. Oh! I thought you once called me cheena? So why are you speaking mandarin now? (You know who you are & I can remember fucking clearly who you are) So what if I speak mandarin, at least I can master both English & Chinese well! So what if I speak mandarin, at least I feel proud as a Chinese who knows how to read, write & speak Chinese.
People who think chinese is low-class, you don't fucking fit to be a Chinese. Go on, migrate to America or whatever & lead your self-illusioned caucasian lifestyle. You think you can be a true-blue caucasian by doing so? You are fucking wrong.....I wish you good luck & I hope you don't ever come back to Singapore or land yourself in China or Taiwan. (Oh I love Taiwan!) You are gonna be so fucking dead.
Sorry. I got too carried away. Gee!
// she's beautifully chaotic at 10:31 PM >> 